I have this memory of when I was young, we used to go camping in something called a Dandy, one day I remember my dad making sketches on a scrap bit of paper, I was young I didn’t really understand what they were but he seemed quite excited at it. Fast forward through the years and I’ve seen my dad build a business from nothing. Developing Powershade and various other products he’s built a successful company, one that I never really understood but feel immensely proud of. The thing is I never understood how hard he worked for it. When...
This post is a follow up on: Why is admitting I can’t do something the hardest part of my job? Stupid stupid hangup.— Mike Bell (@mikebell_) December 20, 2016 There became a point over the past two years where it dawned on me that I was a good coder. It sounds like I’m talking out of my ass but it’s true, I noticed when asked to solve complex problems and found the solution came really easy to me. I guess after over 9 years I get Drupal. The problem with this is that I’m still not a great coder. I’m...
Like most conversations do it starts with a “Hey, how are you?”. What people don’t know is the mental twists that my brain goes through in the split second it takes me to answer. Do I tell them: my heart is jumping out of my chest? my brain is wound up tight? I’d rather be somewhere else where I felt safe? I’m struggling with anxiety? I spend most of my day close to tears? I’m a fraud? I have no idea what I’m doing? All these things I have to deal with on a daily basis. My anxiety scares me...
I’ve not missed you not at all. I wish you weren’t back but here we are my dear friend/enemy Propranolol.
The past few weeks have been really tough, break downs, anxiety attacks all fun stuff.
So there it is the beta blockers are back so I can retain some form of functionality I don’t want this but it’ll get me through the next few weeks when I can focus on rebuilding my mental health defenses.
Around the 9th of September 2015 we set up Slack for NWDUG. Before the slack channel communication wasn’t brilliant, it felt to me like our community was just centred around one day a month event. We toyed with the idea of an IRC channel for a bit but the user on-boarding was too much and the lack of moderation tools and integrations was a real deal breaker for me. So we settled on Slack and then ran with it. I think it’s safe to say that it’s been a huge success! We’re active every week day with a total of...