CBT Round 2 14 Oct 2014

I had my second round of CBT today and it went much better than the first round. This time I took a bottle of water with me it gave me something to focus on and stop my hands from getting all weird, it’s also amazing how thirsty you get during these things. The session was focused on a few situations over the past few weeks where I’ve had issues with anxiety and panic attacks. We identified things about the situations and how I should be dealing with them. I feel much more positive after today’s session and I’m glad that...

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My first CBT session 23 Sep 2014

Today I had my first CBT session. I’m hugely conflicted, I don’t know what I was expecting. My session was just a reiteration of the initial phone introduction. It seemed like a waste of time to me, I’m not discounting CBT at all. I was given a pro-forma thought journal to fill out for the next sessions (earliest was 3 weeks!!!), I’d already seen this in the initial documentation that I’d been sent so I could have done this in preparation for this meeting rather than the next. While we didn’t go into anything of substance in terms of CBT...

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Honesty, Medication and Mental Health 22 Sep 2014

Again it’s been too long since my last post, I seem to come up with ideas and start planning it out in my head only to end up with a rambling nonsensical rant on where I am and what I’ve gone through. This time I’m going to structure it and make sure I get my point across. Honesty I’m now a lot more honest, with myself and those around me. It’s vital to where I am that I am honest, it’ll help detect and issues in the future and make sure that I keep those around me in the loop...

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An Update Pt. 2 18 Aug 2014

It’s been a few weeks since I last posted. I’ve decided to be frank about all of this, I want to be honest with myself and others. I’ve found that writing things down helps to organise my thoughts. My mind is still a mess I don’t fully understand it yet, I have good days and bad. I’m still having panic attacks even though I’m on medication. Overall I’m not as depressed though so at least part of the medication is working as it should. The side effects of the medication are finally waning as well which is great as for...

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An Update 25 Jul 2014

Hi everyone, Firstly thank you so much for getting in touch, I’m overwhelmed by the response from people. I’m sorry to say I just can’t reply to everyone it may seem odd but it’s a lot of work I’m just not ready for. I’ve been to the doctors and I’m getting help. I don’t know how long it’ll take to recover. The Drupal and PHP community has been a great help in starting me off on the road to recovery. Thank you all so much for the support. I’ve never been so scared in my entire life but finally there...

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