Letter to Alex Hynes of Northern Rail 18 Nov 2015

I sent the following email to the CEO of Northern Rail this morning after over a month of frustrating commutes to work. Hi Alex, I’ve recently moved to Swinton in Manchester and I knew in advance that the area was serviced by Northern Rail so my expectations were lower than what I was used to on First Transpennine I wasn’t quite expecting it to be this bad. Here are the examples of things that have happened in the 1 and a half months since i moved: Average daily delay is 10-15 minutes. Mostly in a morning. Me and my partner...

Depression is Exhausting 05 Nov 2015

I’m tired, I’m exhausted. I’m mentally fucked. I had my first “official” appraisal today and I still can’t shake the feeling that I’ve fucked up. That I’m not good enough and everything is my fault. I’m not even sure it is but at the moment I just feel like I should crawl into a ball and forgot that I exist. There’s one part of the appraisal that has really shocked and upset me. Dependability. My “dependability” is less than satisfactory or some other equally negative wording. I don’t really know what to say about that. I feel like I’ve failed...

Home Office! 18 Oct 2015

Since moving to a new house I have an proper office for the first time so I’m determined to get it right. I asked on twitter what remote workers would suggest, here are the results: Coffee shops as a nice change of scenery - @jjmu15 A recurring theme is good headphones! A closed door to indicate “do no disturb” - @blakehall Good music - @jbloomfield Good coffee (duh!) - @jbloomfield Comfortable chair - @hussainweb Good lighting - @lewisnyman @hussainweb Good mic - @longwave I have most of these already so it’s just a case of getting it actually set up....

I fucked up 14 Oct 2015

I fucked up and I fucked up badly. A few months ago I went cold turkey on propranolol (against all feedback) and after a few weeks the side effects went away and I was fine. A week ago I decided to stop taking Citalopram cold turkey. This was not a good idea. Currently I’m suffering from withdrawal symptoms, they’re not very nice and they make working and life very difficult. My symptoms include: Hazy head Extreme emotions Quick to anger Tension headaches I’ve learnt my lesson and I’m going back up to 20mg and will sort out tapering off properly....

Finite Energy 13 Oct 2015

I have a finite amount of energy. My energy comes in a few different forms, all important to how I feel on a day to day basis. I find myself applying energy in the wrong place now. Energy that I put in often doesn’t yield the results I expect or frankly deserve. I’ve found myself questioning more of my decisions recently and the outcome of that has been eye opening to me. At the moment I put my energy in to the following things: Work, coding and process. House Family Community The energy I put into all these things is...

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