Again it’s been too long since my last post, I seem to come up with ideas and start planning it out in my head only to end up with a rambling nonsensical rant on where I am and what I’ve gone through. This time I’m going to structure it and make sure I get my point across.
I’m now a lot more honest, with myself and those around me. It’s vital to where I am that I am honest, it’ll help detect and issues in the future and make sure that I keep those around me in the loop about how I’m feeling. This has become so vital to how I recover as I can no longer hide behind lies and the misconception that everything is fine.
I’m currently on two types of medication, one for anxiety and one for depression. These have both helped a hell of a lot and I don’t think I’d be where I am without them. That being said I need to slowly come off them, this is scaring me more than I thought it would, I’m not sure what part of my mind is me recovering or the medication. I guess I will just have to see what happens once I start to come off them.
A friend pointed me towards @funkatron and his set of talks on Open Source and Mental Health, these have helped me get a better grasp on things, I highly suggest you check them out. I’m currently in the process of putting together a lightning talk for PHPNW on some of the subjects @funkatron touches on and what I’ve been through these past few months. It’s important for me that I can help anyone in anyway, even if it’s just 20 minutes and only one person turns up.