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It’s been over a year since I last blogged, there are a number of reasons: Broken realease pipeline (well not quite but it was messy) I wanted to move everything to docker I hated the way the blog looked A few weeks ago I started to the move to GatsbyJS after a few false starts I finally got there.

After upgrading to Windows 10 finally I figured I’d check out what it’s like developing on Windows 10 and to be honest it isn’t that bad. Windows Subsystem Linux # I installed the Ubuntu image and switch shell to ZSH.

Sometimes the best way of learning something is to just dive in and start using it. I find it really useful to pick an existing working implementation of something and the build it using something else.

Hello! It’s taken me a while to get round to writing something down, partly because I don’t know what to write and partly becuase I wanted to switch CI tools since I removed Jenkins from my production environment.

Below is an update I posted to Convivio and my familly whatsapp group. Parts are redacted. I haven’t really checked in with you all in a while so figured I would give an update on how I am.

When I look at my arm I hate it, it doesn’t feel a part of my body, the scars are a constant reminder that I went through a dark time and it’s something that makes me feel angry and ashamed.

One of the things I’ve found quite hard to accept is how awesome my support network has been over the past few months. Hannah - She’s taken days of work to sit with me and keep me company when times were the darkest, she’s looked after me in so many different and amazing ways.

After this post I figured I should write more since I’ve always found it cathartic. The support I’ve had since I published it has been amazing, thanks to everyone who got in touch on twitter and other means, I’m sorry I’ve not replied yet but it’s a bit overwhelming and I’m honestly not sure what I can say.

I’ve always tried to be open and public about my dealings with mental health which is why this post is probably the hardest I’ve ever written. It started a few months ago when I noticed that stress from work was building up to a point where I couldn’t handle it anymore, depression and anxiety hit hard and I lost control again.

After a recent trip to St Ives and the wonderful Mount Zion coffee I’ve decided to step up my game and buy some new toys for the kitchen. First up is a timer - One of the things I learnt while in St Ives was the importance of draw down time.