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This post is a follow up on: Why is admitting I can’t do something the hardest part of my job? Stupid stupid hangup. — Mike Bell (@mikebell_) December 20, 2016 There became a point over the past two years where it dawned on me that I was a good coder. It sounds like I’m talking out of my ass but it’s true, I noticed when asked to solve complex problems and found the solution came really easy to me. I guess after over 9 years I get Drupal.

Like most conversations do it starts with a “Hey, how are you?”. What people don’t know is the mental twists that my brain goes through in the split second it takes me to answer.

I’ve not missed you not at all. I wish you weren’t back but here we are my dear friend/enemy Propranolol. The past few weeks have been really tough, break downs, anxiety attacks all fun stuff.

Around the 9th of September 2015 we set up Slack for NWDUG. Before the slack channel communication wasn’t brilliant, it felt to me like our community was just centred around one day a month event.

Here’s an easy way to get split panes in PHPStorm without tearing your hair out! If you want Project and Structure then: Make sure Project has docked and pinned mode ticked (using the cog). Make sure Structure has docked, pinned and split mode ticked. You then need to toggle them both a few times for it to work cmd+1 and cmd+7 should work.

Recently my anxiety is triggering more and more frequently. Last night two men were arguing outside Sainsburys at Oxford Road, it triggered my anxiety, my heart began racing, eyes twitching and I became the monster I hate.

Just over three months and I figure it’s time to check in. What can I say I love remote working it suites me very well. I’ve gone form a noisy office full of distractions to a focused purpose built development environment.

I’ve done the impossible. I’ve moved my family to Slack. After seeing a post making the rounds on twitter a few months ago about moving their family to Slack I decided that I’d try it.

A while ago I found Sculpin through @opdavies it looked really great, a PHP based blogging engine. It’s pretty decent but there are a few issues with it. Namely this, there’s already a PR for it but it’s not been merged in and doesn’t look like it will any time soon. The bug renders it all pretty useless when trying to modify things.

The posts below are my journey through the past few years of my life with depression and anxiety. They’re rough, crass and raw. Looking back through all this is a challenge and shows how far I’ve come. Each post represents a large part of my life.